Sisu and Shoes: My 26th year

I’m having a blah day, so not too much to write this evening. Miss my B and SeF… they always know how to make things better, even all the way across the country. So does Pink, he’s a good friend to me when I need it most, and he doesn’t even realize how much he makes my day almost everyday. Well time for a movie then bed. It’s a early morning tomorrow.

My shoe addiction just doesn’t have a cure… bought another pair of amazing BCBG booties. I just love love love them and I can’t get enough. They say the first step is to admit you have a problem. Well I’ve admitted it, however I don’t want to change my addiction. At least it’s healthier than an addiction to drugs or alcohol. Whoever decides to love me will just have to deal with it. I also haven’t been able to cure myself of a certain gentleman from my past. We’ll call him Pink, a homage to one of my all time favorite movies Dazed and Confused.I liked Pink from the moment I met him a year and a half ago, a ruggedly handsome guy with a cute Texas accent and a smile that could melt your heart. We’ve had our downs since we’ve met each other like most friends but always seem to find our way back up.  We just have a connection that is undeniable. Our love for old school rock music and long car drives is one of the things that brought us together even when we were having moments of frustration with each other.  When I’m around him I just try to let go and not try to plan everything because with Pink you never know where you are going to end up. And that not knowing is exciting, and worrisome all at the same time. I like to know where my life is headed and what I’m going to be doing, but with him in it it’s like a ride, you try prepare for the next drop, and right when you think it’s coming up the ride zigs to the right instead of dropping down. I guess with him I’m not quite ready for the ride to end so I think I’ll stay on for a while and sees where it takes me. He is just one I’m not ready to say good bye to yet. So let’s see where this ride takes me. I guess I better hold on…. or put my hands up, close my eyes and just scream.

You may be asking yourself how do you end up on an accidental lunch date, well let me tell you. It starts when someone who also has the same lunch as you asks if you want to grab a bite to eat with each other. Being the social person I am I said yes. Why wouldn’t I want to have lunch with another person rather than by myself. As I finished ordering the guy at the counter asked is this together or seperate. I said seperate of course and the gentleman I was with was like no, I got this it’s together. Now was that just him being polite or was this a ligit lunch date? If anyone knows please tell me. He drove, paid, opened the doors at the restaurant and at work…. I will say that I was pleasantly surprised with how nice of an hour it was. Good food and great company. Well I guess we’ll see where this goes… Besides that a good piece of news is that my store is keeping me past the holiday season. So yay, Im a full time shoe gal! Also, Vegas next month!!!!! Can’t wait for a little quality time with my best friend B! It’s been way to long since we’ve seen each other. Quality time is needed! Well it’s about time to catch up on a lil tv then crash out so I can wake up for a run tomorrow.

I just finished watching No Strings Attached with Ashton Kutcher and Natalie Portman (love her), and with as medicore reviews as it got, I actually really liked it and thought it had a cute ending. It got me to thinking about how unconventional love really is. So many different situations put so many different people together who eventually find love. There is no right or wrong way to meet the person you are going to fall in love with this day in age. In the US there aren’t arranged marriages, as often anyways, where two people are thrust together because of family ties. Although, in some arranged marriages some people find their love of their life. I think that it’s a wonderful, wonderful thing that love isn’t conventional. I love that some couples meet and 10 days later they know they are meant for each other, and some couples it take them 10 years to realize that they have been under each other’s noses the whole time. It’s amazing with technology now days people can just go on the internet and set out on a search to find their match. It amazes me all the different avenues people find love now days. It also gives me hope that the love of my life is out there waiting to bump in to me. Who knows maybe it’s someone I’ve known for years and just haven’t figured it out yet, or maybe I’ll run into him on a run, literally run into him, I am that clumsy. I’m not worried about finding him, I believe everything happens for a reason and they days he finds me will be the day we are supposed to start our unconventional fairy tale.  

Rihanna’s song We Found Love kicked my day off, not only for my run, but on a positive note. A good song, a sunny day and a run by the ocean always puts me in a good mood. As much as I say I don’t like to run, it’s grown on me. I love that when I run my mind just goes to a blank place, I dont think about anything besides the music in my ears, the ocean crashing on the rocks below me and the road ahead of me. I love having a fresh outlook after a run.  It seems like everything can only get better from here and that my life is like a blank canvas ready for me to paint the next picture of where I see myself going. So far the only thing on that painting in going to school, where? I have no idea yet, hopefully the next  couple of months I will get that figured out and get started on my future. I want to buy a small house or condo, fall in a crazy, words can’t describe love, and get myself a dog. This may not all happen in the next year, but in the next 4-5 years, hopefully. I’m ready to be out of this stage of limbo, and use all this built up energy and suceed in everything my future holds for me.

These past couple days my mind is just not focused. Therfore I just feel like I am rambling on and on and on. So I guess I’ll see where this post takes me. First, I feel so lucky that I live in a place where I am able to to wear shorts to the beach in the middle of January. Today was truly a perfect day off! Went to lunch with my mom to an adorable place in Carmel Valley, where I had an amazing kobe cheeseburger. Then we jetted off to Carmel by the Sea and walked along the beaches, then drove through the adorable neighborhoods there and ooohed and awwed over the fairy tale houses. I hope those people realize how lucky they are to live in such an amazing house in an amazing location. I could only hope that one day I would live in such an amazing house. After a much much much needed nap, we walked on over to a favorite bar, Duffy’s, for spaghetti monday. Going to spaghetti monday is a tradition that my family has created while living here in Monterey. I think having even such a small family tradition is so important. It’s nice to have something to look forward to every week. As beautiful as the area I live in my life hasn’t been too exciting. Not knowing anyone besides those I work with makes for a quiet social life. It’s always nice to have some down time, but it is starting to get too quiet for me. The one person, the bearded man, that I became friends with left for school. Yay for him, but sucks for me. He is one of the nicest, most genuine people I’ve met in a long time. I think that everyone is brought in and out of your life for a reason. I’m not sure why he was brought in my life yet, but hopefully I’ll figure it out soon. And hopefully he won’t be completely taken from my life soon.  To some extent I feel like I have some control over how quickly people leave my life, and how long I keep them in it. Well I feel like I’ve rambled enough, maybe a run tomorrow will help me refocus my thoughts.